by ZAFFE

You were tired. we were exhausted. A small room with one bed,lights on. i was absorbing every details, as much as I could. "This is you, a small part of you that perhaps, only selected few knows", i said to myself silently. I was smiling inside, watching the mess here and there, clothes all over your floor, your pink wall.

Little did I know that all the perfect moments would be ruined in just one quick night. I've always thought you are a quiet, calm and somewhat neat kind of guy. I admire you from far, I've seen your tweets and conversations with a friend, which i've found really interesting. Shy, often i have the courage to say hi. I was nervous. I was afraid that when we met, it would be awkward. But no, when i got in your car and met you for the first time, we went berserk. We were shouting and talking to each other with such a high pitch voice. I couldn't help but laughing all the way.

People said that the first impression says it all about a person, whether he is nice guy, or the douche. But I guess you got me fooled.
How long has it been now ? One, maybe two month ? I could barely remember your face.All of our conversation became vague. But I still remember some of the tiny details, like the songs that we couldn't sang to so we skipped it. how it feels when we drove in the highway on 4 o'clock in the morning, the vivid image of me putting up both legs on the dashboard and watching you, singing out loud to Iris by Goo Goo Dolls.

Our reckless decisions, irritional thoughts and turbelence mix of emotions has gotten us into this. To blame God is easy, to even blame evil is much easier. But along the way, thinking of what could have been and what could have not, we have been given a set of choices for what might be happening. And this is what we choose for us.
                     "Why ?" I asked.

                     "Kerana terbaik itu subjektif" You answered.

And you know how i see me from your point of view ? someone who's pretty enough to stare at, who's brilliant enough to have a conversation with, a girl who is funny enough to make you laugh, but that's it. I will be forever just enough for you, okay to be hang around with. alright to hook up with, attractive  enough to sleep with, but will never be good enough to have a relationship with.

So in the end, I rest my case. This is when I've learnt that certain people came into our lives and just leave. Someday we will forget what they say,what they look like, but we will never forget the feelings they gave us. So for you, i"ve learnt that even when you have everything in the world, pretty or not, funny or not, it takes one simple additional score to make someone fall in love with you.
The love itself.

Funny how sometimes things happened in our lifes seems to be without any cause, without any motives. In the end, you realized that all of these moments are there, to make us what we are today. It shapes us, nurtured us with experiences and you will then understand that it doesn't matter, to be sad or happy or just in between.

somewhere along in your life, maybe you will experience this. Maybe in your life, present or future, you will be heartbroken, confused, a complete wreck. But in the end, You learn something you will make it through, and it will be just another phase in your life, you will always remember. and you will be happy because you have finally seen it.

To be loved is not the question.

You just need to love, without hesitations.





MERUNTUN. FromKonotasirasa, Terfaktab.

lek ah bedee

Hai ! :D

ni pun sejenis review tapi review dalam hidup aku so sukahati aku ah. when i got licensed i never expect ayah will give me some permission to drive car without him beside. I'm not that brave instead. mwahahaha kalau ayah ada sebelah aku rasa macam bawak toyota alphard walaupun bawak perodua kancil. errr. see ? tapi somehow serious talk punya kalau awak pembaca ni seorang pemandu tak kira pemandu tegar atau tak YOU WILL feel different driving in kl area than out kl. pernah rasa ? eleh kalau setakat kat highway takpayah cakap ah. jap aku memang takde niat nak berlagak ke berhati besar kedaung ke apa, takde nya. aku cuma nak cerita pengalaman kalau taknak terima kalau laju je nak mencanang aku ni bajet ha pergilah carik blog lain. aku bukan Quran. aku buat salah jugak. haa setepek :p so drive dekat kl. ye. ha. penat. belum cerita dh penat. hahahah yelah kl kan ramai penduduk banyak kereta so banyak rule tambahan kau kena buat contoh macam kasi signal nak masuk kanan pukul 3.58 petang, mungkin pukul 4.20 paling cepat kau boleh ada kat lane kanan. HAHAHAH. booo malu lah anak jantan. sebab rakyat jelata kl ni memang telah terhidang sedari azali konsep kau lambat lantak kau lame ass! nii la ni bukan rule. haha ni one of example. so sejak setahun memandu ni, ceh. aku dah tanam sifat berani tu dalam dalam kat badan aku ni. come on izzati. you have to do. you need to do. so banyak benda yang aku buat yang lain macam. kalau mula2 dulu aku tak berani nak ikut lane kanan(fast lane) dari danau ke rumah. sekarang, bas bas rapid jembalang belah kiri tu memang buat aku panas. so I NEED TO BE ON FAST LANE hihih. ada lah lagi yang menunjukkan ke be ra ni an hahahahhahahahhahah tapi ibu marah. ibu cakap jangan berlagak sgt dengan lelaki sebab nanti dia turun belasah kau. haaa bak datang weh. aku pernah je kena cucuk dekat dekat klcc sana sebab aku lembap sangat kot --' habis nak layan kan sangat perasaan pemandu berhemah yang rasa mcm ada dekat jalan abah dia. payah lah. kena hon. relaks jangan nangis. hon tu macam nasihat from driver to driver from heart to heart. bhahahaha. aku pernah ajak cousin aku kat kampung try drive kat kl camne. kena himpit, kena hon, kena maki. pakej ! tapi dia tak berani. takpelah. nanti kalau ada harapan berhijrah kat sini. kau rasakanlah ;) 

bende bende ni semualahyang buat aku semakin merindui kuala lumpur. ceh mambang.

lagi satu depan rumah aku ada simpang tiga. alaaaa malas betul nak lukiskan untuk kau.

ha nah. kau ni la malas sangat datang. kalau tak takdenya aku berpeluh nak melukis. okay so selalu aku masuk nak kerumah aku ni lah. nak masuk kanan suddenly ada BMW X6 mana datang celaka nak pergi wangsa walk misalnya from yang X beso aku buat tu kat situ kalau dia keluar dia just boleh ke kiri and make a U-Turn kat depan hartini sana. and if you are from my house pun nak terus ke jalan ke barakath kedai mamak tu tak boleh lah gila. kuanghaja betul. aku banyak kali dah jumpa aku cucuk. cucuk habis sampai dia reverse. HAHAHAHAH. siot je ingat comel nak masuk ikut situ. bodoh guna kete besar tapi otak tak sama besar. aku memang hangin betul orang dah beratur punya panjang, kau sedap2 potong. selalunya LELAKI dan KERETA GEDABAK. LEPASTU YANG NAK MASUK KANAN YANG KENA SAILANG TU perempuan. aku malu betul. come on kak, kenapa nak kena kasi chance just bcause he look alike nazmi faiz ? tak payah. lepas kau langgar dia muka dia boleh berkecai tak nampak nazmi faiz. langsung. that was my thought. aku bukan berlagak. sekali lagi. aku cuma nak lelaki ni turun ego sikit. eh kau tak payah nak puih puih aku dah banyak bukti dalam books ngkorang ni memang tak reti nak turun ego.

ada pernah sekali baru keluar dari festival city nak balik rumah. keluar simpang kebetulan kereta dari arah kanan menyerbuu, so ibu kat sebelah ( baru lepas shopping.hehe) kata pergi lane kanan sebab nak masuk simpang rumah. aku angguk tp macam takde chance. kereta sebelah ni mcm acah2 kejap depan kejap belakang. aku bagi signal lama dah padahal kereta depan aku dah rapat gila so aku memang nak masuk kanan tapi cina bukit dalam avanza sebelah ni bontot dia memang eiiiii dia acah je pastu aku bismillah aku celah je macam gaya kereta menyelit dalam tokyo drift ke fast furious ke kira kalau kereta depan aku emergency brek tak tersepit pulak aku. hahahah. alhamdulillah. pastu serentak aku cakap "atie tak pernah buat dosa cemni bu, lagi2 depan ibu" aku harap ibu maafkan aku.





aku pernah jugak sekali tanya ayah; ayah kenapa ayah pilih untuk berada di kl masa ayah mula mula dewasa dulu ? sebelum kahwin dengan ibu ? alhamdulillah.

by AIN NADHIRAH

Loves find a way ke what's meant to be will find a way ?

'Melur sendiri sebenarnya ternganga tak percaya masa benda tu terjadi semua benda tu berlaku terlalu cepat seperti timeslapse video yang diajukan 3 kali. Melur sekarang bersama dengan Dai yang baru dikenali tak sampai  2 bulan walaupun jika dihitung masa infatuation Melur Dgn Zer dah mencecah 2 tahun lamanya. Heh, Melur terfikir nampak tak jodoh tu mcmana permainan dia ?'


"Mel, you still buat I rasa tak yakin about how you feel about us. Macam I ni je yang terhegeh hegeh nak dekat you."
....."You ni Mel... Takde rasa apa apa pun. You macam tak berkorban apa apa. Cuba you cakap dekat I apa yang special dekat you yang boleh buat I stay."
"Seeeeebab, I rasa you're nice guy."
"Tapi I bukan baik pun. Ramai lagi lelaki yang baik daripada I"
"You, this is Love. Walaupun raaaaamaaaaaaaiiii lagi lelaki baik. Kenapa I choose to be with you ? Kenapa I tak pilih orang lain ? Sebaaab, this is our fate."
"I never imagine that I'll end up with a Meleis tudung girl. macam you. Tapi dah suka nak buat macamana"



Dalam buku biodata masa sekolah rendah, Melur tulis dekat ruangan 'ciri lelaki idaman' dengan pen gliter warna merah jambu yang berbau seakan strawberi palsu; tinggi, beriman, pandai dan kacak.

PALING BODOH DALAM HIDUP NI ADALAH BILA KAU TOLAK JODOH.



P/s sebab aku rasa nak buat review.

Arabic word

Assalamualaikum ya akhi ya ukhti :)

mahmah. bergaya betul bini abang jebat jumaat ni. bukan i nak ajar y'alls pun arabic word. i know my blogger reader bijaksana belaka. just wanna 'share' what is actually changing a person ah ? bukan pasal faktor tapi for me benda tu semua kat hati je. if you're doing something hell. cilakak memang jahat gila then come one person in your life. sent by Him.


kalau kau fikir elok2 pun apa semua yang jdi kat kau semua dari Allah semuaaa sebab allah nak. so tak mustahil anyone that comes to your life are from him either for good or for testing. kan ? i nak ajr y'alls terima semua ni qadar ketentuan Allah. kayh ? HAHA. just if the person were sent to make you realize shits you're doing and make sense to yourself. mcm siang malam terfikir apa benar apa yang tuan hamba katakan ? and that's why you have Allah. sujud. tanya Dia :) contoh kalau kau ni memang jenis parok takleh nak faham bahasa. takpun yang perempuan acah kasar. hati keras --" and there's someone coming to give some softener. hahahaha will you change ? i mean is it what make a person change ? okay. dalam contoh ni its okay if perempuan hati kering ke apa. ni jenis lejen tak melalak meraung. dia maybe nangis masa dia solat. kau bukan tahu. so kau kau yang 'dihantar' ni should not use any force to do that. mungkin kau rasa distract gila perempuan ni aku dah psycho gila babi still tak nangis. tu bukan hak kau. dia tabahkan hati. dia yakin dia ada Allah nak tolong dia kuatkan semangat. so you can't obviously change them. Allah know better. same goes when you met someone decide to be special in your life but he/she don't have criteria that should be. faham ? macam kau nak buat husband tapi perangai mcm setan. so kau boleh suap dia nasihat hari2. tapi samaada dia terima atau tak, none of your business. biarin. kalau dia terima and ikut, alhamdulillah. tapi macamlah apa aku taip ni nak diterima orangdah berkapel 10 tahun lebihhh --" semacamm. but i just do my part. nak baca, baca. nak ludah, ludah. awak tu bob suka suruh saya senyum tak nampak gigi, biarlah saya nak senyum mcmana pun. herr.

Lelaki oh Lelaki

Tak semua perempuan pandai luahkan rasa hati

Jadi kau tengoklah kanan kiri

Mana tau hint-hint dah diberi

Jangan lah kau asyik buat tak reti

Makwe sakit hati pun kau boleh lepak Ameer Ali sampai pagi

Siap pulak kau bermention-mention dengan Nani, Hani, dan Abby Abadi

Nanti aku takut kau makan kaki

Baru kau tahu erti hidup ini.

-TERFAKTAB FOREVER-

hurmm. okay tak ?

okay arabic worddd isssssss: wasiman = kacak. kihkih