You were tired. we were exhausted. A small room with one bed,lights on. i was absorbing every details, as much as I could. "This is you, a small part of you that perhaps, only selected few knows", i said to myself silently. I was smiling inside, watching the mess here and there, clothes all over your floor, your pink wall.
Little did I know that all the perfect moments would be ruined in just one quick night. I've always thought you are a quiet, calm and somewhat neat kind of guy. I admire you from far, I've seen your tweets and conversations with a friend, which i've found really interesting. Shy, often i have the courage to say hi. I was nervous. I was afraid that when we met, it would be awkward. But no, when i got in your car and met you for the first time, we went berserk. We were shouting and talking to each other with such a high pitch voice. I couldn't help but laughing all the way.
People said that the first impression says it all about a person, whether he is nice guy, or the douche. But I guess you got me fooled.
How long has it been now ? One, maybe two month ? I could barely remember your face.All of our conversation became vague. But I still remember some of the tiny details, like the songs that we couldn't sang to so we skipped it. how it feels when we drove in the highway on 4 o'clock in the morning, the vivid image of me putting up both legs on the dashboard and watching you, singing out loud to Iris by Goo Goo Dolls.
Our reckless decisions, irritional thoughts and turbelence mix of emotions has gotten us into this. To blame God is easy, to even blame evil is much easier. But along the way, thinking of what could have been and what could have not, we have been given a set of choices for what might be happening. And this is what we choose for us.
"Why ?" I asked.
"Kerana terbaik itu subjektif" You answered.
And you know how i see me from your point of view ? someone who's pretty enough to stare at, who's brilliant enough to have a conversation with, a girl who is funny enough to make you laugh, but that's it. I will be forever just enough for you, okay to be hang around with. alright to hook up with, attractive enough to sleep with, but will never be good enough to have a relationship with.
So in the end, I rest my case. This is when I've learnt that certain people came into our lives and just leave. Someday we will forget what they say,what they look like, but we will never forget the feelings they gave us. So for you, i"ve learnt that even when you have everything in the world, pretty or not, funny or not, it takes one simple additional score to make someone fall in love with you.
The love itself.
Funny how sometimes things happened in our lifes seems to be without any cause, without any motives. In the end, you realized that all of these moments are there, to make us what we are today. It shapes us, nurtured us with experiences and you will then understand that it doesn't matter, to be sad or happy or just in between.
somewhere along in your life, maybe you will experience this. Maybe in your life, present or future, you will be heartbroken, confused, a complete wreck. But in the end, You learn something you will make it through, and it will be just another phase in your life, you will always remember. and you will be happy because you have finally seen it.
To be loved is not the question.
You just need to love, without hesitations.
MERUNTUN. FromKonotasirasa, Terfaktab.
Little did I know that all the perfect moments would be ruined in just one quick night. I've always thought you are a quiet, calm and somewhat neat kind of guy. I admire you from far, I've seen your tweets and conversations with a friend, which i've found really interesting. Shy, often i have the courage to say hi. I was nervous. I was afraid that when we met, it would be awkward. But no, when i got in your car and met you for the first time, we went berserk. We were shouting and talking to each other with such a high pitch voice. I couldn't help but laughing all the way.
People said that the first impression says it all about a person, whether he is nice guy, or the douche. But I guess you got me fooled.
How long has it been now ? One, maybe two month ? I could barely remember your face.All of our conversation became vague. But I still remember some of the tiny details, like the songs that we couldn't sang to so we skipped it. how it feels when we drove in the highway on 4 o'clock in the morning, the vivid image of me putting up both legs on the dashboard and watching you, singing out loud to Iris by Goo Goo Dolls.
Our reckless decisions, irritional thoughts and turbelence mix of emotions has gotten us into this. To blame God is easy, to even blame evil is much easier. But along the way, thinking of what could have been and what could have not, we have been given a set of choices for what might be happening. And this is what we choose for us.
"Why ?" I asked.
"Kerana terbaik itu subjektif" You answered.
And you know how i see me from your point of view ? someone who's pretty enough to stare at, who's brilliant enough to have a conversation with, a girl who is funny enough to make you laugh, but that's it. I will be forever just enough for you, okay to be hang around with. alright to hook up with, attractive enough to sleep with, but will never be good enough to have a relationship with.
So in the end, I rest my case. This is when I've learnt that certain people came into our lives and just leave. Someday we will forget what they say,what they look like, but we will never forget the feelings they gave us. So for you, i"ve learnt that even when you have everything in the world, pretty or not, funny or not, it takes one simple additional score to make someone fall in love with you.
The love itself.
Funny how sometimes things happened in our lifes seems to be without any cause, without any motives. In the end, you realized that all of these moments are there, to make us what we are today. It shapes us, nurtured us with experiences and you will then understand that it doesn't matter, to be sad or happy or just in between.
somewhere along in your life, maybe you will experience this. Maybe in your life, present or future, you will be heartbroken, confused, a complete wreck. But in the end, You learn something you will make it through, and it will be just another phase in your life, you will always remember. and you will be happy because you have finally seen it.
To be loved is not the question.
You just need to love, without hesitations.
MERUNTUN. FromKonotasirasa, Terfaktab.
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