Aizat cakap aku hipokrit bila aku cerita for the first time i feel ready to go out with fully muslimah attire with a friend. heh one thing i feel really funny is i wore tudung rocket; yang pin 3 ke bawah tu(unfashion) *usually. so the chest part dah covered but i'm not practically use socks @_@ Dari sekolah i thought my friends who wear socks and handsocks were just saje saje. nak nampak different. Sad thing, i was school in normal one. none with strong agama basics. when i go to university i saw these few sisters wearing like true cover what should be covered la. so if i change now, in the name of AllahSWT. He who turns my heart. siapa nak sangka dari sekolah sampai universiti dia dah tunjuk tp tak pernah terlintas nak buat. siap gelak lagi member2 pakai socks :(( Allah. pernah ada rasa yang sangat membuak nak pakai purdah. nak jadi perempuan yang sangat susah org nak pandang. Masa tu start doa. Hari2 doa mintak Allah ampun dosa.Dosa marah2 ibu,dosa tengok nota masa exam, dosa 'tak malu' sebagai perempuan. dosa tak hormat adik beradik. macam2 dosa dah Astaghfirullah astaghfirullah ..
I told aizat back, yes i am hypocrite. people saw me good but deep in me i am so teribble and only HE knows. Aizat cakap lagi harini je pakai socks esok lusa hilang. yesss :'( i did a lot of sins and yet He still gimme chances to repent. Aizat mmg sorang yang sangat jujur well i like his attitude smtm, but sakit hati jugak ah sbb mulut dia ibu pun pernah nangis. Dalam hati senyap2 doa lah aizat doakan aku istiqamah. Ye dik, nak berubah can be in a blink of eyes tp nak tahan perubahan adalah satu jihad. jihad kita semua. berjuang untuk terus bertahan di jalanNya. sabar dan doalah diberi kekuatan. What i feel when i really wear this thing, bukan nak menunjuk cuma nak mintak doa ramai,sokongan etc. i felt so bless. jalan sorang2 pun takde nak rasa apa. sebab mungkin Allah protect me in any ways. naik train punn rasa safe rasa macam org takut nak dekat walaupun tengah bersesak. rasa mcm org takut tersentuh tangan yng uncovered. Yes! i feel that. Bila lelaki pandang pun mcm nak taknak takut2 as for you girls information, men eyes are really different, really wild and please ya allah just please. do not exposed yourself to them. yang longgaaaaarrr apa depa nak pandang kan ? kan. i want to stop be good in front of ppl, i want to be great in front of Allah SWT. I dont need attention of this dunia. Stop please. berhentilah hina dan berlaku kejam pada diri sendiri kakak, adik.
as for me, kalau adik sendiri susah nak support, i believe more people in the train was interepting me. looking for the bad. Its okay. say anything. I just listen to His order.
InsyaAllah
Hijrah ni susah. sana sini org duk mengata.ye memang. Hijrah tak terbentang dengan red carpet kawan. Allah SWT nak tengok macamana padu usaha kita bermujahadah di jalan suci ni dan ujian takkan berhenti walaupun iman dah full tank. Sampai satu masa denga keikhlasan hati yg tinggi, redha .. hanya redhaNya yg kau cari . waktu tuu dah penat gila dengan tohmahan cacian manusia.
'cukup. cukup aku sama Dia' yang pasal anis pulak as the first person who sees me with a diff angel(yela kan) hahaah she asked me why did i wear jubah ?panas2 ni. I dont have any answers or reason. Even God dont need any reason to take out your breath I realized people die not just because they got ill.they did some shit and God punish them with take out the soul. exactly not. so ready anywhere :) saya mahu kalian teru terusss doakan saya. i wont be standing only by myself and ignore that feeling of 'tak boleh tengok orang lebih' this is my part insyaAllah. if u not agree with me or dont like me at all u dont have to pray bad thing for me.
Semoga tuhan berkati perjalanan kita semua menujuNya.
p/s:jumpa kat syurga nanti ye.
I told aizat back, yes i am hypocrite. people saw me good but deep in me i am so teribble and only HE knows. Aizat cakap lagi harini je pakai socks esok lusa hilang. yesss :'( i did a lot of sins and yet He still gimme chances to repent. Aizat mmg sorang yang sangat jujur well i like his attitude smtm, but sakit hati jugak ah sbb mulut dia ibu pun pernah nangis. Dalam hati senyap2 doa lah aizat doakan aku istiqamah. Ye dik, nak berubah can be in a blink of eyes tp nak tahan perubahan adalah satu jihad. jihad kita semua. berjuang untuk terus bertahan di jalanNya. sabar dan doalah diberi kekuatan. What i feel when i really wear this thing, bukan nak menunjuk cuma nak mintak doa ramai,sokongan etc. i felt so bless. jalan sorang2 pun takde nak rasa apa. sebab mungkin Allah protect me in any ways. naik train punn rasa safe rasa macam org takut nak dekat walaupun tengah bersesak. rasa mcm org takut tersentuh tangan yng uncovered. Yes! i feel that. Bila lelaki pandang pun mcm nak taknak takut2 as for you girls information, men eyes are really different, really wild and please ya allah just please. do not exposed yourself to them. yang longgaaaaarrr apa depa nak pandang kan ? kan. i want to stop be good in front of ppl, i want to be great in front of Allah SWT. I dont need attention of this dunia. Stop please. berhentilah hina dan berlaku kejam pada diri sendiri kakak, adik.
as for me, kalau adik sendiri susah nak support, i believe more people in the train was interepting me. looking for the bad. Its okay. say anything. I just listen to His order.
InsyaAllah
Hijrah ni susah. sana sini org duk mengata.ye memang. Hijrah tak terbentang dengan red carpet kawan. Allah SWT nak tengok macamana padu usaha kita bermujahadah di jalan suci ni dan ujian takkan berhenti walaupun iman dah full tank. Sampai satu masa denga keikhlasan hati yg tinggi, redha .. hanya redhaNya yg kau cari . waktu tuu dah penat gila dengan tohmahan cacian manusia.
'cukup. cukup aku sama Dia' yang pasal anis pulak as the first person who sees me with a diff angel(yela kan) hahaah she asked me why did i wear jubah ?panas2 ni. I dont have any answers or reason. Even God dont need any reason to take out your breath I realized people die not just because they got ill.they did some shit and God punish them with take out the soul. exactly not. so ready anywhere :) saya mahu kalian teru terusss doakan saya. i wont be standing only by myself and ignore that feeling of 'tak boleh tengok orang lebih' this is my part insyaAllah. if u not agree with me or dont like me at all u dont have to pray bad thing for me.
Semoga tuhan berkati perjalanan kita semua menujuNya.
p/s:jumpa kat syurga nanti ye.
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